A Matter of Weight?
i realise there's a whole bunch of draft posts in this blog that i've become too lazy to finish up on. partly because they were started in states of high emotional activity that fizzled out in a few days leaving behind not much motivation to finish. so in this post, i am going to attempt to finish it in 10 mins. starting 5 mins ago.....crap.
i was on the train with S and two french classmates the other day heading back home after french lessons. the two classmates are younger in age compared to S and I. they are full time students too while S and I are not so proud members of the singapore workforce.
what occurred to S and I, while chatting with them, was how much energy and how little care they seemed to have. one is a bubbly 21 yr old girl, easily excitable and full of awe and bursting exuberance and openess about her behaviour and life. the other is a 25 yr old fresh grad male looking to further his studies. and likewise had the energy to chat with our bubbly friend and a certain lack of worry or care in the world.
I would give anything to be in their shoes honestly. to be in that carefree, unrestrained state of mind. not having to wonder what others think of me or how my actions have to be considered because so many factors, perhaps self imposed ones, weigh in on the decisions i make in my life.
is this due to emotional baggage? age? a lack of emotional strength and fibre? or perhaps all this is just a feeling of enviousness. that the grass is always greener on the other side?
alright so i took 15 mins. at least im posting. :)
i was on the train with S and two french classmates the other day heading back home after french lessons. the two classmates are younger in age compared to S and I. they are full time students too while S and I are not so proud members of the singapore workforce.
what occurred to S and I, while chatting with them, was how much energy and how little care they seemed to have. one is a bubbly 21 yr old girl, easily excitable and full of awe and bursting exuberance and openess about her behaviour and life. the other is a 25 yr old fresh grad male looking to further his studies. and likewise had the energy to chat with our bubbly friend and a certain lack of worry or care in the world.
I would give anything to be in their shoes honestly. to be in that carefree, unrestrained state of mind. not having to wonder what others think of me or how my actions have to be considered because so many factors, perhaps self imposed ones, weigh in on the decisions i make in my life.
is this due to emotional baggage? age? a lack of emotional strength and fibre? or perhaps all this is just a feeling of enviousness. that the grass is always greener on the other side?
alright so i took 15 mins. at least im posting. :)
posted by Ic3nCok3 at 4:18 PM
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